My life since whenever i last blogged.....

A lot has happened since i last blogged. I can't even remember when it was if im totally honest.
I know it was before my birthday.....yeah i'm 21 now. Boom!
I'm going bed soon, early night for me. I'm ill so it's totally acceptable.

So for now i'm just going to go on and on about my 21st birthday.
It was awesome.
Lots of presents, got spoilt by everyone! 21 is a good age.
Both of the nights out i had were absolutely immense. I got so drunk both times but i remember what happened...i think.

Finally allowed to wear my fur coat. It is the warmest thing i have ever worn. EVER! The only time i don't wear it is when i go to work...the fear of someone stealing it is just too much.

But that can be enough about my birthday.
To sum it up, my birthday was immense....as planned.



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Angry Blog

So last night I went to see Kids in Glass Houses with the bestest.
It was absolutely amazing.
Apart from one thing..........mosh pits.
Sorry but one the mosh pit was filled with 12 years old who didn't really know how to mosh in the first place and two the support act was Boys like Girls and erm it barely counts as any sort of rock so i was confused as to how it was possible to mosh to it. Ok i don't go in mosh pits anyway....i am far too posh to mosh.
But even i understand there's certain types of music that should not have mosh pits and last night was one of those nights.
They was even moshing to the cd that they played inbetween acts.
Seriously kids, calm yourselves down. Go get angry somewhere else. 12 year old angst.
It didn't help that the mosh pits would always happen just infront of where me and the bestest was standing and where i couldn't smoke it's easy for me to say i got irritated real easy. I ended up shouting at some kid who just wouldn't stop banging into me. I think i may have just scared them slightly because they all seemed to move far away from me and the bestest.
But if you take away the confusing mosh pit mess the gig itself was actually awesome.
Boys like Girls aren't the best in my opinion but they do have a few good songs. The first support act was You and what army? and they were awesome. Reminded me a lot of Enter Shikari and we all know how much i love them.
Kids in Glass Houses themselves were epic. Probably the best gig they played. Last night was the 6th time i seen them so it's pretty safe for me to say that.

But even better news tonight i'm seeing Enter Shikari and 30 Seconds to Mars with the Bestest. I can barely control the excitement.




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Totally seeing Kids in Glass Houses tonight.
Stoked.

Sounds like a plan.....

The last couple of days have been hectic. Well not really hectic.
Been staying at the Lady's house since Sunday but i'm home now so it's all good. I've missed my bed loads. Sleeping on the sofa with the Lady hasn't really been the most comfy experience of my life. But the last couple of days have been a right laugh!
Throwing water over a pikeyfight, doing synchronised random dances and making right idiots out of ourselves in Iceland.
You wish you knew what i ment.
It's so funny yet embarrasing at the same time but i would not change the last couple of days for anything.

It's pretty safe to say my week off from work has been awesome so far and i know that the rest of the week is just going to get better.
Seeing Kids in Glass Houses tomorrow for like the 5th time.....it's going to be epic. Of course not forgetting to mention the fact i'm seeing Enter Shikari and 30 Seconds to Mars on Thursday which is gonna be mental. Will be like the 6th time i have seen Enter Shikari.....i just can't help it....they're awesome man!
And if that's not enough it's only my 21st birthday on friday and yesterday i booked my tattoo. Awesome week methinks.
Oh yes.




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On a more exciting note....

My birthday is only 10 days away.
Gosh.

Realisation is a bitch.

So over the past few days, maybe a week or two if i'm being real honest, i have come to realise a few things.
They're not exactly good things either....but then again i can think of the positive side of it. That would be the bitchy side of myself coming out.
I can focus on things that matter more to me now.
Stop wasting time.
Focus on important things.
I'm going to look forward and not focus on the have beens.
Most people won't have a clue what i'm on about and i like it that way...keep them guessing.
Cannot change the past and i'm pleased about that because i have had a lot of fun. I won't go as far as looking into the future because for a start i'm not magical and i think living for now is the better option.
Take life day by day.
Never know what is going to happen.




My amazing little unpredictable life.



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Lady & the Tramp

Guess which one is which?!

Update of my life...

Surprisingly there really isn't much to update.
Still single
Still working in the same ol' place
Still seeing the same friends

But i have got new hair!
Finally......

I turn 21 in two weeks and i'm feeling like i have over prepared for it. For once i'm actually over prepared for something....not the last minute "oh that will do." I have known what i'm wearing since September. Now that i actually have the dress i just want to wear it all the time but as it's a present i'm not allowed it till my birthday. Sucks. I've been sulking like a 2 year old since i got it.
Only 2 more weeks to wait. How much says the time drags?

Since i went to the Avenged Sevenfold & Stone Sour gig i have not actually stopped listening to them. I think i'm getting a tad obsessed. Good bands to be obsessed with i think.


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Hellyeah, Avenged Sevenfold & Stone Sour

What an epic gig! Best ever.


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Halloween....

Halloween was epic....can't remember what i done as such but i know the pictures are funny. So as i can't remember what happened or anything i'll just let a few pictures do the talking......
Oh i got my extensions!!!!!!!!!!

Shopping Trip.........

Well what an interesting shopping trip.....
Started off going to Subway, couldn't park so we left. Went to Argos in Maidstone and well they had sold out of the game we wanted so the plan we came up with was to go to Hempsted Valley to get some food & the game.
We only got lost didn't we?
We managed to drive through Gillingham, straight past the turning to head towards Hempstead Valled and went through Rainham and some other place i think was called Newington.
Was a fun detour in all fairness.
But after what felt like a year to get there the plan was successful. We got food & the game we wanted and we left within an hour of getting there.
Most people would see that as a waste of time but i see it as a fun detour with the Bestest.

Good times.




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What a dayyyyy

Lets just say the day hasn't started off well at all.
First of all woke up at 5:45am and baring in mind i have to be at work for 6 it's not exactly a good thing waking up 15 minutes before i have to start. But i managed to make it somehow, it was like magic.
But i didn't have time to have my morning cigarette which put me in a bad mood anyway. To make it all worse i decided to get period pains, which most girls will be like get over it but i usually don't get them. I've probably had them 3 times in my life!! So that made my mood worse and then a headache occured....i'm slowly falling apart.
Whilst i was at work i managed to drop pretty much everything i went to pick up. I also nearly smashed a bottle of wine which would have been a nightmare but i didn't so it's all good.
Home now and i've had a cigarette and a lovely mocha and my mood is getting better.
Lets hope the day will pick up and it should because i have the Bestest coming over later, as always, and we're going to get drunk and play games. Either sounds like a grown up kids party or a night in with the old dears. Either way it's going to be awesome!



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presentssssss

The Lady messaged me earlier on Facebook saying she knows what she is getting me for my birthday.
That is probably the WORST thing to do with me. I'm now going to keep asking what she's thinking of until she tells me......i feel i NEED to know. 9 times out of 10 i usually find out so lets just see what happens.

Let the games begin.



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Dukan Diet.....

I'm aware i said i'll keep a track of my progress but in all honesty i haven't stuck religiously to the diet. Cookies & chocolate are just a must! I have gone for the "indulge yourself every once in a while and it won't feel like you're dieting" approach....and it's sort of working. Altogether i've lost a stone so far in a couple of months, may not look like it but nevermind. Now i'm just trying my best to not give up hope altogether and go back to my old "eat all day" self.
I'm just drinking water, eating sensibly and sort of exercising.
I say sort of exercising because i don't exactly go to the gym, or go jogging, or do anything THAT physical to be honest. I just walk, do housework and try to keep as active as possible. It seems to be working but i'm feeling sessions at the gym today for some UNKNOWN reasong. Especially as my Gym Buddy is at university in Southampton!! Lets just see what happens.


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It's just so cold.

The sun may be shining but it is absolutely freezing outside. My feet have lost all feeling and i'm wondering if i actually have feet right now.....
The heating will be put on once i stopped writing this!
I got (well ordered) my first birthday present the other day. They were in the sale so i had to persuade mum to get them now rather than later...just have a month and 6 days to wait! They're leopard print trousers. Sound disgusting right? well they're not. Trust me (well i like them and i suppose you're entitled to your own opinion) so you'll just have to wait to see them.

I keep listening to The Cribs at the moment. I have to admit i only have been listening to them for a couple of weeks but i find them rather addictive. I got Spotify so i thought "why not just give them a listen?" Turns out i've heard a few songs before but i just never really pay attention to the radio/tv apparently. That happens to me ALOT....i have the attention span of a goldfish. Do they even have attention spans? Nevermind.

Anyway i must try to walk on ice blocks...which are more commonly known as feet...to put the heating on!


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The look of fear.....

It's a kids slide......

Birthday stuff...nothing exciting

Only 1 month and 13 days till i turn 21.
I don't want to turn 21 because 21 means you have to start getting serious about life. Ok not totally serious but you can't just bum around from job to job and just going out and getting wasted. Ok maybe i'm exaggerating again but it's all good. I can't imagine me acting serious at all. Perhaps turning 21 will change me....for better if anything i hope. Bring on the anti wrinkle cream!
I started planning months ago about what i want to do for it but i always seem to change my mind. Lets do everything because then i will not be disappointed right? Might be disappointed by the presents i get but that's another thing...joking i appreciate all presents because i don't expect any...well apart from my mum, well family in general.
I planned on what i was wearing....but now i want to wear about 5 different outfits. I clearly need to rethink everything.
I still have lots of time to do it.

Sorted.



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kjfguiehbafdjvn

Clearly couldn't think of an exciting title.
Just been going through my old blogs from the beginning of the year because i was having a conversation with the Bestest and we decided the year has gone too fast. So i read back on my old blogs to find out where my year had gone. Writing a blog for the year was obviously the best thing i've ever done seeing as i spent the majority of it drunk and lost half my memories. That is probably why my year feels like it has flown past because i do not remember half of it!
I realised my life seemed far more interesting at the beginning of the year. Going out all the time, having random days, doing some housework (ok that's not interesting but atleast i got to dance with a hoover) and other stuff. Now it's just the routine of work, work, work, work, work, a bit of play time and more work. I also considered this to be the reason why i don't blog as much anymore because nothing interesting happens in my life anymore. Ok maybe thats an exaggeration as lots of interesting things happen every day! Ok maybe not everyday, that would be an exaggeration too.
I'm blaming this lack of interest in my life on the fact i feel like i NEED to run away and get some excitement back. The Bestest is probably feeling totally insulted but i don't mean it as an insult at all. The Bestest is great and no matter how much i crave interest and excitement i never mean from her because well when we get together the most random stuff happens. No we're not lesbians. Get over it.
This is actually making no sense because it's all just coming out of my mind as a big jumble. Pshycobabble.
It's easy enough to say "Sort it out!" but it's not easy when you don't know where to start or what to do. I'll figure it out eventually because i'm amazing like Spiderman like that. Don't believe i have now referred to Spiderman. Fermerlerf.
It's a good time to stop pshycobabbling now.
Bring on the weekend



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That just had to be done. Sorry to the Bestest.

Funniest picture from last weekend...

Think i need to work on my mannerisms.




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.....

Sometimes all i hear from people is blah blah blah. Is that me being rude or them being REAL boring?

So....sort it out?

Feels like i haven't wrote for ages!
Just don't want to seem like i'm on a big downer all the time but times like these sometime you just can't help it.
But the weekend was rather immense. Had such fun.
Alcoholic beverages
Dancing
Laughing fits
Chatting to weird guys
Fancy dress
Going home later than planned
Subway
And many more events just totally made my weekend.
I decided weekends should come round quicker seeing as during the week my downers seem to occur. This is not good.
Ok maybe it's not all my fault there's drama here, there and everywhere in my life but i'm partly to blame.
My mum wants to move, i'm well on board with that idea! I think it's just what i need right now..... a massive change in my life and a mug of mocha would go down a treat. But the move won't happen for a while anyway because of all the technical side of things which i'm clearly going to leave up to my mum because i really can't organise my wardrobe let a lone sort out moving houses. Why can't things be simple? Would certainly make life easier but then wouldn't an easy life being boring? Not necessarily.
Let's concentrate day by day....best way to deal with situations.
Bring on thursday (if everything goes to plan...which it won't but never know)



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Dukan Diet: Day 1

Ok so as well as stopping snacking and eating as healthy as i can possibly manage (with the odd indulgence every once in a while) i have decided to give the Dukan diet a go.
It seems pretty straight forward once you know what you're doing but at first can get quite confusing. I decided to just concentrate on the stage i'm doing because overall there are 4 stages of this diet. At the moment i'm on the "Attack Stage" where you only eat protein for 2-7 days depending how much weight you want to lose. The more days you do the attack stage for the more weight you lose in the first week. After a while you ultimately ending up eating anything you like but having 1 day where you only eat protein. Seems like a dream come true right? I'll keep you updated on how it's going just incase if anyone does read this then they might think about giving it a go.

Day 1:
After struggling to make a galette it tasted better than i imagined...it will take some getting used to though! I don't know if it's just because i didn't know what i was doing or if it was the actual recipe but it took me what felt like 10 years to make 3 galettes. They are basically pancakes but a very good for you...the secret ingriedient? Oat Bran.
For dinner i cooked Rosemary and Mint Meatballs and they were luscious. I could eat them every day as far as i'm concerned! They were still a complete mess to make and the majority of them fell apart in the saucepan but in the end tasted like heaven.
I've also drank 2 litres of water which is really good for the body but it's really bad when there is one toilet and 2 Dukaner's. It's been a fight most of the day!

I have high hopes for this diet!!


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What to do on a saturday.....

Me and the Bestest was bored today so after the Bestest had been to the dentist we decided to get breakfast. That was some good breakfast! After that we went to Toys 'R' Us.....it was so much fun!
You can't help but smile in Toys 'R' Us. Pressing all the "Try me" buttons and acting like a big kid. We did actually have a reason to go there but there wasn't really any reason to press all the "Try me" buttons we just did that because it's what you're supposed to do right?
Don't pretend you wouldn't press all the buttons, i know you would.
Fun times on a Saturday.



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p.s got tickets to see All Time Low. Oh yeahhhhhhhhhhhh.

Ok so i shouldn't online shop.

I know i have no money and yet i can't help but looking at what i can't afford. My "shopping basket", so to speak, came to a total of £205 from iheartdropdead.com and that was me being harsh on myself! If only i could click "checkout" i would be a very happy me right now....

I'll get all of you eventually my darlings! (if you can't guess then i was talking to my soon to be clothes.)



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River Island

Ok so i totally forgot about how much i LOVE River Island.
I went in there the other day and i left with a wide opened mouth and dribble hanging out the side. Sounds attractive i know. Not only do they have the jacket of my dreams they have pretty much everything i have ever wanted. Sequin peep toe shoe boots, bear hats, knuckle dusters and so much more!
I've been so fixated with Topshop for such a long time i left my other loves behind. I need to work out how to balance it out so my love is shared equally (but mainly in those two shops.) At the end of the day i'm only a female who loves nothing better than a fantastic shopping trip.
I tell you what River Island, you better watch for my face. I'm sure you will get sick of the sight of me!! Anyways here are some of the things on my shopping list.....

Buffta's in the Ruffta's

Do i NEED to say anymore?



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Lets grow old together

& die at the same time.

The weekend

What a magically weird weekend.
Went out Friday night and ended up getting my drink spiked.....second time it has happened in the same place! I didn't want to go there but was having a good time anyway and then went all tits up but nevermind i enjoyed myself.
Saturday went to see Muse and it was immense. Left the house at about 12ish finally got to Wembley Stadium at about 3ish and sure i wasn't hanging like a bitch. Gates opened, waited for what felt like a lifetime for the first support act to come on but they did eventyally. I am Arrows was the first support act, pretty good i must admit. Then it was White Lies turn and i really did enjoy them. I didn't realise i knew so many songs. It's the songs i hear & sing along to on the radio but never pay attention to who actually sings them. The last support act was Biffy Clyro and they were awesome too. Saw them at Reading Festival couple weeks ago and i'm pretty sure they played the same set but it's hard to remember every song of every set!! Finally Muse came on stage and i was so excited. Me and the Bestest stood behind this group of big hairy guys and lets just say they like to headbang. My eye got abused with hair from 3 different guys. Mosh pits occured just infront of where i was standing so my toes got a battering too!! It's all a part of the fun.....i STILL don't understand why people mosh. Why pay 50 quid for a ticket to go get pushed by a load of big men? But that's just my view.
Haven't really done much today, can't be bothered. Annoyed at the fact people think their lives are worse than they are. Nevermind.


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Note to self....

Stop being such a pushover!

I want to go back to these times...

These were good times.
I have loads more good times but i was only allowed to upload that lot...not epic.



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Ok...

So maybe i over reacted just a tiny bit on the last blog. But everyone can over react once in a while right? I do love my life just would love it even more if i could change a few bits about my situation right now. I'm 20, single, living with my mum and in a job i get no satisfaction out of.....look at me living my life to the fullest!!
But i have a plan of action. It's top secret though so have to keep it on the hush for now....WATCH THIS SPACE! Or not...it's totally up to you.

Going to see Muse Saturday and i think i might wet myself a tiny bit when they walk on the stage....i've been waiting for this for a very very VERY long time. It's going to be a good one.

And i got new luscious shoes yesterday. 4 inch heels + tassles = one very happy me. Well was happy till it all went tits up but that's yesterday's news.

Things are going well with A.A (no not alcoholics anonymous before you all ASSUME the worst) so that's good. Looking forward to those plans.....just hate all the waiting around, sorting out and technical side of things. I want everything to happen now. I live for now...not in 5 months or however long!



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Ok seriously....

I think a good blogging rant is needed right now. If not i think i will SCREAM. No amount of cigarettes could calm me down. So annoyed.
Don't know where to start.
Ok fair enough i have short hair and a fuck load of piercings but to just assume i'm a lesbian is NOT funny. I do not even know you......
I may joke about it a lot seeing as i do have short hair and i am single but my true friends know that i'm messing about. My true friends know that i'm as straight as straight gets. My true friends know i like a bit of cock.
Might get "I'm straight" tattooed across my forehead to make things straight.
Which leads to the other thing i'm annoyed about............I'M STILL BLOODY SINGLE! Don't get me wrong i don't want to jump into a relationship or anything but even to have a guy take me on dates, to make me feel special, to text me for no reason would be great right now....and people wonder why i want to move away and start a fresh (maybe with a few old bits tied in!) but seriously am i really THAT bad? (Comment this blog to tell me where i'm going wrong please) At the end of the day i can't change who i am and even if i could i wouldn't want to. You either fall for me or you don't. I'm not changing. EVER. Fact.
Maybe i am shy and quiet but i cannot help that. No matter how hard i try to talk to people i always feel like THE biggest dickhead....feel like why would people want to talk to me? Sounds a bit depressing but thats why i'm shy. Never really told anyone that before so hey why not just blog it so anyone can read it?
Once you get to know me i chill out and talk for england and crack real bad jokes but people generally can't be bothered to make effort with the "poor shy lesbian looking girl" can they?
I feel like getting a guy to ACTUALLY fall for me is mission impossible right now.
Nevermind.
There's someone (a GUY i might add....a HUGE cock would be a great bonus) out there waiting for me...if i don't believe that then i might just give up completely on love.
I WILL get my happy ending one way or another.







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It's September?!?

Where has the time gone? This year has gone so fast! I'm still wondering what i have done with my year. Just watch the days go by one by one. Before you know it we will all be counting down to midnight and sing all about 2011 (i can't spell the song otherwise i would have mentioned it) and then watch that year fly past.
Why can't i take a minute to slow things down and appreciate things in life?
That sounds depressing doesn't it? It's not ment to sound depressing.....really.

I went to Reading Festival last week and it was awesome. Mud absolutely everywhere but i can't expect every festival i attend to be beautiful sunshine can i?!
Oh if your name is Alan and you're reading this then i really don't think you should go to Reading Festival as everyone just shouts Alan so all the Alan's in the world could get a bit confused. Would be funny though.
Saw all the bands i wanted to see except from Mumford & Sons. They clashed with Queens of the Stone Age and seeing as i have been wanting to see Queens of the Stone Age a lot longer than Mumford & Sons i thought it would only make sense. I don't regret that choice at all. Queens of the Stone Age were immense. The other acts that stood out for me were; The Libertines, You Me at Six, Billy Talent, A Day to Remember and of course Blink 182. There's loads more i want to mention but i'll be blogging all day!!
The other amazing thing about Reading Festival is the BBC Introducing Stage because it's a chance to discover new bands. Me and the Bestest decided to go watch a band called Penguin because we like penguins and it was clearly the best thing to like as the band was awesome. Totally impressed. Check them out!! www.myspace.com/3penguinsuk


Anyway i'll blog some more tomorrow................maybe.



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Blah.Blah.Blah

I got my hair done on monday. I love it! It hasn't changed too much but the colour is soooooo nice.
Now i'm just searching into hair extensions but can i find anything remotely close to my hair colour?!? Not at all. I got my last lot of extensions off Ebay but believe me they have let me down this time. I don't have a clue where to get extensions from so i'm just gonna keep my eye out....lets hope i find some...kinda want long hair now and don't want to wait for years. Bored of being bald! Ok well not bald, just a lack of hair but i do love it or i wouldn't keep getting it cut off.

Next big thing. This time next week i'll be at the Reading Festival. Oh yes i will be. I'm pretty much packed. Well i just got to actually do the packing bit. I sorted my clothes out earlier and looks like im taking loads but its only because i threw them onto my bed! once they are nicely folded...ok, well folded....maybe folded...into my suitcase then it should be fine!

Bring it on.
Can't wait for the week to be over. WEEK OFF!
Bring on Friday.



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10 days.

Yes it's only 10 days till Reading Festival.
It's getting rather exciting. Work in the mornings consist of "Lets take this to Reading." To be honest we won't take anything we point out because we're not rich. We can't afford anything.
Good times.
Getting my hair done tomorrow. That's proper exciting. Can't really change it much because it's so short & can only go shorter so nothing exciting with the style. Find out what happens tomorrow.
I'm getting ill. Again. That sucks. But all life can't be smiles and laughter can they? Well Reading week will be all smiles and laughter. Might look like a tramp but there will be a smile on my remotely dirty face.

Still no matter how much of a dirty tramp i will look it's going to be the best week of my life.....again.


But now i'm off to go save the Bestest from a war with the eye intruder!




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It's all about finding magic in the most unexpected places.

SCREW YOUUUUU

Shopping trip...

THEY DIDN'T HAVE MY BOOTS!!! Gutted.
But i did get lots of other nice bits instead so it's not all a total fail.
Got food & alcohol for Reading and i can see it being a good week.
Morgan Spice...yum


Going into town tonight. It's Dubbed Out so i know it's going to be a good night. For once me & Bird are being sensible and taking flat shoes with us. Every time we go we're like "My feet huuuurrrrrtttttt" and sit down for hours on end. So this time we thought we be sensible.
It's going to be a good night!

Banging.



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banging....

I do love a friday.
Especially a payday friday.
I get to buy my boots today. I am totally excited and if they don't have my size i might just cry in the shop.
Time to start preparing for Reading festival, i mean it's only 19 days....that's plenty of time for me to sort everything out right? I hope so because i dont have much choice.
Anyway i should go get ready to go into town to buy my boots.
I think my work uniform is not really acceptable.



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21st Birthday Celebrations.

Ok so my birthday is not till Novmeber and the Bestest's 21st isn't till September but we're already planning our celebrations.
We decided to celebrate from Reading Festival till December.
So we're starting off by going to Reading (good way to start the celebrations right?) and then 2 weeks after that we're seeing Muse (even better) and then we're seeing Avenged Sevenfold and Stone Sour (can i get any better?) and then we're seeing Kids in Glass Houses (we're going to celebrate in style) and then we're seeing 30 Seconds to Mars & Enter Shikari (two very beautiful bands).
That's the celebrations so far and that's not even including the nights out in town yet.

Lets see how many gigs we can fit into the celebrations. It's going to be immense.
I'm so excited. I'm as excited as a fat kid in a cake shop....that's pretty exciting.

Just can't wait for them to get started. Only have 26 days to wait!



BRING IT ON!



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Just a few old, most likely embarrasing pictures.

Math's is not our strong point.

It's 27 days till Reading. Me and the Bestest can't count down properly. We've been adding on a day for some unknown reason. We're great really.
It makes it a day closer so i'm not complaining.

I should really go finish my room. When i say finish i mean carry on. Lets be honest, it's no where near finished yet. I'm just so lazy.
I like to start projects and then never finish them. I always want them done 10 times quicker. My mind must work in mysterious ways. I swear it's constantly on fast forward.

Pay day next week. Now that is exciting. I get to buy my boots which i've been waiting to get for nearly 4 weeks now......since last pay day to be honest.
After pay day i think it's something like 2 weeks till Reading but i can't think that far forward. Live in the present, not in the future.




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How can 1 photo change your mood severely?
Can't bring myself to throw it away.
Bad times.



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p.s

& it's only 10 days till i get my sexy new boots



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It's my day off.

My day's off are usually spent chiling out, doing nothing.
Today that is not an option. I've already done some washing and its only 12:20! What happened to the good days where i never got up before 12?
Suppose the benefit nowadays is that the day is not wasted in bed....usually with a hangover.
If someone said to me 6 months ago "You'll have a job where you have to wake up at 5 in the morning and work 6 days a week" i would have turned around and laughed in their face.
Who's laughing now? i'm sure not.
That isn't ment in a miserable, depressing way. I'm perfectly happy.
Why wouldn't i be happy? I have the BEST friends ever, i have a job (ok it's not the best job ever but it's better than not having one) and i have a great family (selected members only.....Ok..my mum)
It's all smiles and cheers for me right now.
Plus its 30 days till Reading.
How could i not be happy?!?



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Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Sometimes you just feel like screaming.



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Paint, paint, paint.....oh and more paint.

I wish my walls would paint themselves.
I would wish for a smaller room but i love my room.
Not even been a week yet and i'm already bored of painting. The 3 biggest walls are done....well just about...but i just want it finished already.
The Lady helped me the other day (clearly the whole "I'm going to do it all by myself" plan went out the window) it was fun. Actual conversations whilst painting makes it less boring.
Today i roped in my Mum to help me. She's qualified in painting & decorating so she's obviously a good person to help me. That and i can get away with just sitting on the floor pretending to rub down the skirting board.
I just want my room finished now.
I miss my bed.


Love.

31 days

Yes people, there are only 31 days left till Reading Festival.
I clearly cannot wait.
5 days of pure fun. Mostly drunken fun but not totally drunk that i can't remember seeing the acts i REALLY want to see.
I'm really looking forward to seeing Mumford & Sons but i'm pretty sure they are going to clash with someone else i want to see. I want to say Biffy Clyro but lets just wait till i get there.
Talking about Reading. Me and the Bestest put our tent up to air it out and see what damage there was from Reading last year. Well who knew putting a tent up could be so challenging?
No tent pegs + no instructions = pure chaos.
The tent ended up upside down. Mainly because of the wind and not because of our lack of tent-putting-up skills.
But apart from a few makeup stains the tent was absolutely fine. Good times.


Love.

All i want to do...

is buy new shoes.
Why can't my debt people understand this simple statement?!?





Love.

I'm gonna break down these walls...

Ok maybe not gonna break my walls down....just paint them all.
That's right, i'm finally decorating my room.
I give it a couple of weeks before i get bored and give up.
But hopefully the painting would be done by then, it's just the finishing touches that makes a room & that will probably take me the longest because i'm pretty fussy. Plus i'm doing everything by myself.
Good luck to me.
We all know i'm not a qualified decorator but how hard can it be to paint a wall?
I bet it's going to be ridiculously hard now i said that.
How long should i give it before i eat my words?



Love.

Saturday night.

My life lately....

It has been a right mixtures of up & down.
I don't know whether i'm coming or going anymore.
My wrist is hurting me again, back to the doctors i go & i still won't go on anti depressants no matter how much he thinks i need them. I don't need them. I'm not even miserable.

Town Saturday night was a right laugh. I had a good time. Got home at 6 & got up at 9 to go to work. I clearly was looking very rough the next day. Never mind, it just shows i had a great night.

Finally got paint to re-decorate my room. I'm going to do it all by myself because then if anything goes wrong i only have myself to blame. Not that anything will go wrong because i am clearly an expert in decorating.

Still dieting. I think i will be for the rest of my life at this rate. Good news is i have lost weight but the bad news is that i don't think i'll ever be happy in myself. Too many skinny people around. Come on people, eat a burger or 10!

Reading is coming around very fast. Only like 5 weeks now. I have mentally packed. Best part is that i still have half of it to buy. I'm taking 5 outfits and 3 pairs of shoes. Keeping everything to a minimum. I clearly can't carry a lot of stuff. It's all good. I just cannot wait to get there now. Hurry up please?




Love.

New life rule.

My new rule is;

I have to buy myself atleast 1 pair of new shoes a month.
Shoes make me happy.




Love.

Shopping

Went shopping today.
First of all with my mum & then again with Bird.
Spent like 7 hours shopping in total.
Great fun.
I got some absolutely amazing shoes from New Look. £7 in the sale. What a bargain.
Got a lovely dress to go with them.
And of course a few other bits and pieces.

I've just generally had a great day.
All giggles and laughter.




Love.

A whole week of dieting.

I'm used to it now.
It's a good feeling.
No one is like "Have you lost weight?" yet but it only has been a week.
My mum thinks I have because she said, and i quote..."You don't seem as lumpy."
Thanks mum.
I don't think lumpy is good in any sense.

Bring on this week!



Love.

Well today's good.

After paying off some of my debt, i have now realised i'm half way to being debt free. Well debt free from the major stuff anyway.
The weathers good.
I feel good.
Tired but good.
Going for a walk round the Lakes soon. Should be fun. Be with a dog. I love dogs, it almost gives you a reason to go walking.

This weekend in general should be interesting.
First sober weekend for as long as i can remember. I'll probably have 1 drink because i haven't stopped drinking, just majorly cut down.

I wanted to buy a maxi dress whilst the sun is out but can i afford the one i want? Of course not! Wait till next month.

Reading is next month. Now that IS exciting.



Love.

You know you're cool when....

you're mum turns around and says "You're having a late one aren't you?" at 9:15pm on a thursday night.
Score.
I'm right up there with the cool kids i am.



Love.

Blaahhh

I want my social life back.
I feel like i don't have one anymore.
I miss my friends.
Hate having to get up at 5 in the morning. New job maybe?
Shame it's ridiculously hard to get a job right now. I keep looking but there is just nothing going about. Sucks.
But some job is better than no job.
Atleast i can't drink if i don't have a social life. Cutting down is a challenge as it is. Yes cutting down not given up.
Didn't drink monday night. That's a first.
Lets just see what happens.
I will sort it out somehow.



Love.

Workout DVD's are bad.

Attempted the Clubland Workout of your life DVD yesterday. It wasn't as bad as i thought it would be but my god, it would not end. I must have been doing it for about 2 hours. Well probably not that long but certainly feels it.
The skinny blonde woman kept telling me to pull my abs in. One problem there.....i don't have any abs. If i did i'm sure as hell i would not be on this diet. She could have said "Come on girls hold your fat in." But noooo had to be abs didnt it.

Woke up this morning with only a couple of aches but it would be round 2 of the killer DVD today. In a few hours actually i just need to make myself think it's the best thing in the world first.

I can lie to myself.



Love.

My Make-up artist is the best.

Day 1 of the diet.

Well its been a few hours since the diet started and well what can i say? I'm already missing crisps. Biggest weakness ever.
I may have forgotten about it this morning when i bought a can of Coke after work. I got out of the shop and was like "I really should not be drinking this." But nevermind, i'll remember now. Well i'll try to anyway.
Going to Tesco's with the Muv in a bit to get healthy, diet food. This is going to be the worst food shopping trip ever.
When we eventually get back from Tesco i'm going to attempt th workout DVD i stole from my sister's flat.
Let's be honest, i'm going to need about 3 litres of water and 2 fans to keep me going. But if it works then i'm not going to complain THAT much.
Who am i kidding? Complaining is what i do best.


Bring it on.



Love.

The last weekend before the diet.

What a weekend it was too. Never ate so much in my life.
I just had to get rid of everything bad in the fridge.
Stayed at the Bestest's house all weekend. We drank, watched film and ate some pork scratching flavoured quavers. Ok they weren't Quavers just some very dodgy pork scratchings.
We played charades but we only did bands/singers. Funniest thing ever. Nothing will ever beat my Metallica attempt or the fact every time one of us was like "4 words" we just shouted Kids in Glass Houses. Could not stop laughing.
We also attempted to play cards but when there is only two of you, your games are very limited. We attempted to play Bullshit but it really wouldn't work because whatever i didn't have, the Bestest had. Still managed to get a good few lies in there though.

Good times.



Love.

Everything & Anyone

So i'm apparently "improving" at work. Good times.
I just need to "stop faffing about." But anyone who knows me, knows that faffing is what i do best. It's like in the morning i'm ready with a good 10 minutes to spare but i usually leave later than planned because i was too busy faffing about. Good times right? Who doesn't enjoy a good faff.

The Bestest won't stop coming round my house. Mainly because i ask her to come round but still. We need to prepare for this marvellous idea we had. Plan is now named 'Lets try to fit into a tent at Reading' aka 'The Diet.' What a brilliant idea that was. I'm so totally looking forward to eating rabbit food. Oh by the way that was my attempt at sarcasm if you couldn't guess.
And a personal note to the Bestest- Don't worry i won't be eating Stewie's food.

But the Bestest is AWESOME. "Scoreeeeeee"

To go with this stupid diet i got an even worse exercise dvd. It's going to be like that advert for Curry's (I think it's curry's anyway) when the fat guy is exercising in the frontroom and the TV falls off the wall. You seen that right? Well anyway, my TV does not stand a chance. Nor does anything in my frontroom. Next week when there are sudden bursts of volcanoes, do not panic, it's just me trying to keep up with the skinny blonde on the dvd.




Love.

Ok so i'm having this early mid life crisis.

To sum it up, my sister is a dick.
She generally does what i do now.
When i started listening to rock music, it was the worst thing she ever heard but a few months later its like she invented the whole genre. The same with dubstep.
She steals my clothes ALL the time when she's like a size or 2 smaller than me. She asks me to do her makeup the same way i do mine when she goes out.
She steals the majority of my ideas for tattoos & then gets them done first.


And then she wonders why people think we look alike?!?


Just when i thought my piercings were safe......OH NO how wrong could i be?
She goes and gets her lip pierced.
But it's not all bad......it's not the same side.
Like THAT makes it all better.
She may as well just change her name to Sara.

I don't know what to do to make me different to her anymore. If i wanted to look ANYTHING like her then i wouldn't have cut & dyed my hair the amount of times i have. I wouldn't have got tattoo's to make me different to her. I wouldn't have got piercings so people wouldn't be like "Oiiiii Kim" ...."Erm think you find my name's Sara. Dick."
Suggestions would be great. But only suggestions where i won't end up looking like a bigger dick than she does ok?




Love.

Wanna tell you a secret

& leave it on your lips.



I totally forgot this song.



Love.

I'm so jealous.

Spent the weekend pretty much sulking.
Turned the tele over and it just HAD to be Muse live at Glastonbury didn't it.
I wanted to be at Glastonbury. By the time i went to go get tickets they had all sold out! There's always next year.
Went last year and it was absolutely immense. 5 days of roughing it up in a tent was actually great. I was pretty worried to be honest.

But some good news.
There's only like 60 days left till Reading festival. I should really start buying stuff for it soon. So much for spreading the cost.




Love.

Wannabe Coyote Ugly.

Last night was actually so funny.
Originally i said i wasn't going to drink. That did NOT last long. Seeing how i had beer & cider whilst i was getting ready.
But 4 beers, vodka redbull, 6 shots of sambuca, 3 vodka and some mixer and whatever else i drank, later i was wasted.
Dancing on the bar to some random songs was deffinately a laugh. I could TOTALLY work as a Coyote. I just need to lose a whole load of weight and dress like a slag.
I'm surprised i didn't fall off the bar with my big boat feet.
No injuries is a good thing.


If you ever see me out on a Monday night please ignore me yeah?



Love.

The link below is Vogue's take on festival trends. Seeing as i'm going to Reading Festival i thought i would see what clothes people would be wearing or are atleast in trend. I'm not 100% crazy about all of the clothes but some a VERY lush.



Love.

Festival fashion - style trend on VOGUE.COM (Vogue.com UK)

Festival fashion - style trend on VOGUE.COM (Vogue.com UK)

Listen to this....

It's great isn't it.



Love.

well well well....

What an awesome weekend.
Friday night i was babysitting but still it's all good.
Saturday night i got wasted. I felt rather sober though? I just have one of those things that tells me not to act wasted in a place i don't know. Ok that sounds worse than expected. I knew where i was & who i was with but don't know the area well at all. Does that sound less dodgy?
Hope so.
Wasted all of Sunday in bed. I needed the sleep. Lack of sleep Saturday night.
Which again sounds dodgy. It's ment in an innocent way. Honest.

Lets go get some tattoo's priced up biatch.
It's about time for another one don't you think? It's been just over a month since my last one. Banging.

Bring on this week.
Oh yeahhhhh



Love.

Ok.....

So there's me, asleep in my bed and my alarm goes off. Fair enough seeing as i set it to get up. So i woke up at half 4 then set my alarm to go off for 5.25 so i can get up and get to work in plenty of time. Did that plan work today?
Of course not.
Woke up at 5.45 and was shocked i fell back to sleep. I got ready in 10 minutes and i had to practically run to work. It's never a good look when a fat kid runs to work. Ok so maybe i didn't run but still it's never a good look when a fat kid is walking really fast and smoking on the way.
That and i didn't have enough time to make my hair & make up decent.
Not even half decent.
It was terrible.
The only times i've woken up that late for work has been when i got drunk the night before. Last night i didn't even touch one drop. Didn't even smell the stuff.
To make it even worse i saw 2 guys at work which i knew. Why couldn't they come in yesterday when my makeup was pretty decent?
How is this fair?
Nevermind. I apparently go for the half dead, i'm an idiot look in the mornings.



Love.

Seriously....

People love to pick on me this week.
Why can't you spread it out so you're not all doing it in one week?
My head hurts too much as it is. Ok maybe that's been half self inflicted but still all these problems just aren't helping.
You suck.



Bring on October. Fingers crossed everything still happens. If not it will be slightly delayed. But i know that the plans will happen.
My plans always work one way or another. The time of which they happen seems to change but still it's all good.





Love.

This is why we shouldn't drink