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What a night.
Was going oh so well as it always does then this slight mishap just happen to occur. It didn't mean anything and yet no one understands that and there's me trying to take control.
Why should I take control of everything? I have my own problems to take care of.
Don't get me wrong I don't mind listening to everyone else's problems, I actually like being the one people turn to. But, who can i turn to? no one has the time of day for me? People may say that is a lie but when i do turn to them for a problem slowly but surely it will turn back to them.
I'm starting to think why should i be bothered with them when they can't be bothered with me? In all fairness I'd never change the way I am and I'm not bitching about the situation it's just every once in a while i would like to rant about my problems. Believe me, I have a few. It's lucky that no one really will read this because I'd get in so much shit from my friends because they would be like "I do listen to you" blah blah blah but i'd rather listen to everyone else's problems than deal with my own. I love to run away from my problems so i don't know why i'm saying i want people to listen to my own. It's just all fucked up right now.
I know what I want, I know my problems. But I don't know how to solve them. All the problems are slowly building up. Ignorance is not going to solve them. I know this but still every day im like i'm fine, i'm fine. Don't get me wrong, I am fine. It's just me being selfish and worrying about the little things in life when in all fairness I could be a lot worse off.
I'm going to stop ranting now and go for a beer.

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